Insomnis veritas

A musical project

This song serves as a reminder that our choices are our own. Despite the dishonesties of others or the circumstances of life, we are responsible and free to cultivate a life which feels safe and free.

Though I wrote this song over 5 years ago, the lilting rhythms linger in my mind. Falling’s melodies have stuck into a deep part of my soul and remind me of the freedom that comes through letting go.

LAtest Single:

Falling

Verse 1:
Falling in love with the thought of you.
That’s all I ever knew how to do.
Paint a picture of your soul, in my brain.
All that’s left in the world I could do was pray.
Pre-Chorus:
You messed with my brain,
but your lies made me stay.
I clung to my smile,
As I died everyday.
Chorus:
Falling in love is easy,
it’s the getting out that’s hard.
Falling in love is easy,
it’s the getting out that’s hard.
Verse 2:
Falling in love with the future me.
Now that’s my kind of manifest destiny.
Eyes wide open, soul strong,
I am finally free.
There is no one and nothing,
that I’m supposed to be.
Pre-Chorus:
You messed with my brain,
but your lies made me stay.
I clung to my smile,
As I died everyday.
Chorus:
Falling in love is easy,
It’s the getting out that’s hard.
Falling in love is easy,
It’s the getting out that’s hard.

Previous Works:

Fabricated Reality

Written for a young Christian woman who was stuck in an abusive marriage to a pastor. The lyrics describe both stuckness and freedom, a reclamation of self despite the isolation and struggle that come from covert abuse.

Verse 1:
Fabricated reality,
Brick by brick built around me.
Isolation in word and deed.
Your lies were laced with true beauty

And I'm scared,
Of all the things you put me through.
Too aware,
Of all the things you made me do.

Verse 2:
There are patches on my heart,
Scraps of cloth covering all my scars.
There are whispers in the dark,
About the truth of who you are.

And I'm scared,
Of all the things you put me through.
Too aware,
Of all the things you made me do.

Chorus:
Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

Bridge:
Do not think for a moment that I envy
Those who've lived different lives from me.
For my strength begins in my story,
And there's life that I've gained from my injuries.

Do not think for a moment that I envy
Those who've lived different lives from me.
For my strength begins in my story,
And there's life that I've gained from my injuries.

Chorus:
Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

Chorus/Verse 1 Overlay
Fabricated reality,
Brick by brick built around me.
Isolation in word and deed.
Your lies were laced with true beauty

And I'm scared,
Of all the things you put me through.
Too aware,
Of all the things you made me do.

Verse 2:
There are patches on my heart,
Scraps of cloth covering all my scars.
There are whispers in the dark,
About the truth of who you are.

And I'm scared,
Of all the things you put me through.
Too aware,
Of all the things you made me do.

Instrumental
Chorus:
Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

Cause there's power in the pain;
Power in the name that I have gained,
From the game you have played.

Cause there's power in the blood,
I have lost for the sake of love;
Didn't know he liked it rough.

INVICTUS

Inspired by the William Ernest Henley poem of the same name, Invictus is the Latin word for “unconquerable.”

An anthem of survival while traversing an unsafe life, this piece is the declaration of an indomitable spirit despite a future that is murky and unknown.

Regardless of circumstance or potential hardships, we can surmount them with resilience and a pursuit of truth that exists beyond external and internal barriers.

I stopped up my ears
to not hear the siren call
But temptation it cleared
now I hear them all.
Tied to the mast
My telos at last
I long for them
I am fighting for my end
Two roads diverged
In a dark and moody wood
Which path I should take
Knowing does no good.
Feel this call of your heart
It will tear you apart
The trick of fate
In this Shelob’s web called Faith

Invictus
I chase truth
I’m a sailor on stormy siren seas
Invictus
I break through
And nothing can stop me
Invictus
I break through
And nothing
can stop me
Bloody but unbowed
Though futures but a shroud
A specter mist horizon
Tugged on by the wind
Sails taut our quest begins
Despite the fear that fills the silence….
Invictus
I break through
I’m a sailor on stormy siren seas
Invictus
I break through
And nothing can stop me
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.